Monday, April 18, 2005 8:25 PM
to get all that outta my mind, i went to eat at mac wif shermaine and fatin..i was in such a bad mood that i din even wanna get up to buy food...until fatin was practically forcing me outta my seat...then there was this group of teens who came in wif this bird...which sorta looked like a cockatoo...haha..then we remembered..."eh, what's jonthan ng doing here?"..haha..then we called him on loud speaker...this was sorta how it went..
ng: hello
us:hey..wad u doing at mac?
ng:huh?..where got?
us:(luffing) why are u toking bird language to us?
ng:huh?i can't ear u..
then he hung up...
i asked him again online and he saed his fone had bad connection...then calle dme a loser for being lame...it was FATINTIN'S idea...halo!!!she is the loser..haha...no offense bayb...
then i went home and saw my cuzzies...danced and played wif them...made dessert..haha...then was listening to this song and totally fell in love wif it...it totally reminded me of my late grandpa...if u can read this, i juz wanna tell u that my eyes wld haf tears everytime i thot bout u...i never knew how much i loved u until u died...i miss u sooo much..i juz wished tt i had not left so early the week b4 u left...i wished i had spent more time wif u..i always thot that there was a next time..i guess i was wrong....i totally wanna see u again..i wanna hold u close and spend more time wif u...i really regret it...and all of us are having a hard time to accept the fact tt ur gone...when i go to ur house, i used to expect u to be at the door, greeting me...now all that's left is an empty sofa...cold and not so cozy anymore...i can't help it...i cry at ur every thot...in fact, i'm crying so hard now..lionel is sorta calming me down now..nort working...i juz wan u so badly rite now..i wanna noe tt u are still there everytime i go to ur house...though its not happening, i noe u haf never left my heart...i can remeber tt dae like it was yesterdae...i was woken up at 3 in the morning.. it was 29/1/05...saturdae..heard the news...cried nonstop...went there, and saw u lying there, cold and lifeless...my whole world came tumbling down..was supposed to go for band tt dae..but it was too painful to see u there and leave it that wae...i juz wan u to noe tt i miss u so bad...the song tt i fell in love wif is "dance with my father" by luther vandross...its very nice...and me and my bro wld like to dedicate it to my gramps...semoga tuhan selamatkanmu di akhirat nanti....here goes...
dance with my father
luther vandross
Verse 1:
Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
Chorus:
If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him,
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love, to dance with my father again
Verse 2:
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me(yeah, yeah)
Then finally make me do just what my momma said
Later that night, when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
Chorus:
If I could steal
One final glance
One final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to dance with my father again
Verse 3:
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
I'd hear how my mother cried for him
(x2) I'd pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she' s dying to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream
gosh.. miss him so much...
anyways...if u want, here are the pictures i promised...
the shoe
close up of the front*crisscross*
me admiring my feet in those shoes...they cost $47 a pair...burnt a hole in my pocket sia...
klah.. betta wash my face b4 i start crying agin.. i'm still missin euu gramps...toodles