i've been feeling down lately.
left out.
like i'm not needed anymore.
i dun think i haf friends.
whether im around or not, it doesnt make a diff.
or rather.it wld be better w/o me.
stupid to be feeling this way.
dumb to be thinking like this
but hey, tts just me.

i'm doubting it - our friendship.
is it true?
does it mean anything to u?
i noe it does on my part.
u seem to forget me when u haf other friends.
i feel useless.
lonely.
i try to hold it in.
now i'm juz erupting.
it is wrong on my part to put evrything here and not tell u.
but u seemed to be in good spirits just now.
din wanna spoil it for u.

i love u for being there when i needed someone the most.
for making me feel light and happy.
but this 1 yr gap btw us is making me paranoid.
DUMB.
i noe.
but tts just how i feel.
i hope we can sort things out.
cos i'm hating this feeling right now.
no matter how this will turn out to be, i just wanna say that my last 6 months have been the most enjoyable times of my life.
thanks babe.