dear fatin, shermaine, dora, melvin, naqib, zhao shan and all those involved.

you don't know a fuck about me or what has been going on at home.what's that?ohhh right.you don't care.so i won't rattle on about my misery.all i have to say is you have done well and CONGRATULATIONS, I HATE YOU!

no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity...I hate your pity

taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness
as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
...you took them all...

I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile
as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

SWALLOW YOUR PRIDE

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze...

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile.

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

SWALLOW YOUR PRIDE

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes